Remain the Same

Am I such a boring person ? Yes, im. But is it a must for a person to be talkative, active, cute and hyperactive ? So that, he or she can be friend with ?

I thought, in college, it will change, will not occur again. Unfortunately, in the end, it appears again. Everything remain the same.I treated you guys as my friends, but in return, you guys just ignored me after using me. I didnt say that you guys must buy something for me as what friendship stuff, whatever it is, i just need you guys not to ignore people. Yes, i know im not as popular, as talkative, as active and as cute as some of my friends, at least let me know, im still exist in this world. But you guys really like to hurt people's feeling.

Even though im sitting beside with the so called 'popular friend', they only just play, invite and chat with her. They totally make me as a ghost, keep chatting and playing with her. Yes, i know im not active as that girl, but you guys make it so obvious that dont want me to join you guys. Is that so important for you guys, until you guys forget about my exist ?

You guys really made me so pissed off, angry and sad. I admit that i dont like to talk, DONT KNOW HOW TO TALK and dont look pretty, but you guys too obvious that, try to ignore me. If I got the power, I hope I can make myself disappear in this world. You guys are more cruel than me, I just cant stand with you guys anymore.

Im trying to cool myself, but you guys keep hurting me like it has been your habit. What the... When you guys need me, I will b there sometimes; when you guys dont need my help anymore, you guys just throw me away as like Im the object here. Is it that fun to be hurt people, to make people cry ? Sorry,I dont cry for you guys, dont ever dream about it.

I will be strong some day. Even though i said it so many times, I still cant be as strong as what I hope to be. But what I need for now is, time to cure my feeling. I will change some day. Everyone has his or her limit, so do I.